July 31, 2010

Day 9: Someone you want to meet

Um I really don't know what to say about this one....I mean there are friends I want to meet but I think this question was probably about someone I would most likely NOT get to meet. Hmm... I might have to think harder about this.. I don't really like the idea of meeting an idol because usually they don't turn out how you expect and that can be kind of disappointing.

Tomorrow is "someone you wish you talked to more"

July 30, 2010

Day 8: Best Internet Friend

OOOOOH, that's a hard one. I love all my blogger buddies but there was an internet buddy I met WAY before I started blogging. So I dedicate this post to her. I met Denise on gURL.com almost 6 years ago. We started chatting on aim and eventually started talking on the weekends. She is such a sweetie and I thank her for listening to me rant about college or other things, with out complaint. And she knows I'm there for her too.

Tomorrow is "Someone you wish you could meet"

July 29, 2010

Day 7: Ex-lover or crush

hmm I guess i'll talk about the last guy I dated before Jodi. But I'll use the alias given from a random name generator "Erik". Originally I started talking to Erik because a friend of mine wanted to date him. For about a month I talked to him and finally convinced him to date her...the next day she dumped him. But I had got into the routine of talking to him so we continued. We mostly aimed online after school. Then I asked him out. But it wasn't what I had hoped out of a relationship. During school he barely talked to me, wouldn't hold my hand, or sit with me at lunch. We continued to talk online and that's all we did. I figured we made better friends than couple but after the break up we never talked much after that. I don't blame him either most people don't.

Tomorrow is "Your Favorite Internet Friend"

July 28, 2010

Day 6: A Stranger

I've met quiet a few strangers but I guess the one that stuck the most was Leather Jacket Girl. The conversation we shared only lasted about 20 minutes while we waited for the Jazz show to open up. We both happened to be there because of a music class assignment but she went to the neighboring college in my region. She had on a black leather jacket, skirt, and her hair was in a pony tail. I believe her hair was black or a dark brown the lighting at the time sucked. I learned that her mother lived in Memphis while her father actually lived about 10minutes away from me. She lived in an apartment, Her parents were divorced. She hated her music and film class. But I never learned her name. Of all the things she could of told me, she left out her name. Though in her defense I never asked for it. I wonder how she turned out, whether she even liked the jazz show?

Tomorrow is "And Ex-lover or crush"

July 27, 2010

Tune Tuesday + Day 5: Your Dreams

I have simple dreams, I think. Be happy, have my dream home which is a hybrid of a cottage, run my own business, live a long life with Jodi and have a child possibly named any combination of the (Thaniel Rye, Artemis Thatch). I would like to finish my bucket list before I kick the bucket. I think that's it. Tomorrow is "A Stranger"... Now on to tune Tuesday!

This week is The Dead Weather which is a band that started in Nashville, Tennessee not to far from me! If I have this right Jack White of The White Stripes started this as another musical project. They debuted in 2009 and have played live. Below is their song "I Can't Hear You"! The band is listed as alternative rock but they throw in screamo every now and again.

July 26, 2010

Day 4: Your Sibling

My sister and I have a weird relationship but I think it's one that most sisters have. I could be horrible wrong about that though. Anywho we don't like the same things and we can get on the others nerves but even though we don't have anything in common we have this connection and we can just randomly bust out in song or crack a joke.

When I was young she taught me how to swim by pushing me into the deep end of the pool and how to ride a bike by pushing me down a hill. But she also lent me her jacket to wear when I forgot to wear a bra to school or stand up for me. So we have kind of a yin-yang relationship i guess you could say....

Tomorrow is "Your Dreams"

July 25, 2010

Day 3: Your Parents

My parents divorced when I was ten and have been two completely different driving forces in my life. My Dad loves some of the same things as me, he would watch anime with me and still does, likes most of the same music, and will back me up on anything. He's my dad but he's also my friend. My mom doesn't have the same interests as me with shows, movies, and music but we both enjoy sewing. She has always been there when I needed her and if for some reason I called and said I needed her help I know she would do it. She was strict when I was a child and taught me very young that the world is not always a nice place. I would never change the way I was raised, I wouldn't be the person I am now if it was any different.

Tomorrow is "Your Sibling"

July 24, 2010

Day 2: Your Crush-Lover

I met Jodi around seven years ago. It was the 8th grade and I had just been inducted into beta club. I was walking down the hall, school was almost out, and I saw Jodi walking down the hall. He only had a wife-beater on since he had been helping the janitor at the time instead of going to the ceremony. He looked at me and did a head-nod.

I HATE THE HEAD-NOD THING! So I, with much enthusiasm, flung my head back in mocking fashion. He thought I was a tard. We didn't see each other again until I was in 9th grade. He was a Junior(11th grade) and we happened to have the same environmental science class. He was such a smart ass hahaha, but I ate it up. We would argue about the most ridiculous things like spelling grammar.

In December we had a back to school/winter dance. His friends dragged him and mine dragged me. We ended up dancing even though he was there with another girl who happens to be the sister of a close friend. ANYWHO... We started hanging not too long after that and then on March 27 (happened to be Easter at the time) he asked me out officially and we have been together ever since.

He knows my past (good and bad), my dreams, my fears, my desires...everything. And I know his. I love that man more than anything.

Tomorrow is "Your parents"

July 23, 2010

Day 1: Your Best Friend

Meleonie is doing a 30 things to blog about. I was initally going to wait until August first to begin but I'm sadly still sick and is dreadfully bored being at home all the time. So with nothing else to blog about I'm starting this early. The first one is "Your Best Friend".

I would like to say I have a handful of best friends... but I don't know. I think this topic is harder than I originally thought. My best friend who I know will always be there for me, never gets bored of me, and puts up with me is without a doubt my boyfriend. I also have friends who I never get to see, that would be you blogger buddies, but they are so sweet and understanding. I also have another friend I never get to see but I know and so does she, that we can call each other crying and the other will do everything in their power to help sooth the pain.

I have a close friend who, although when school is in session I BARELY get to see her but when I do we have a blast. We can talk about music for hours and enjoy creating and crafting. But she is the hardest person to get on the phone, texting she isn't too bad. :D

Tomorrow is "Your Crush-Lover"

July 20, 2010

Tune Tuesday

E Nomine was a German band that started around 1999 and stopped in 2008 after a dispute with their publisher. They have an electric-Gregorian chant style. It's not the electro I could see myself dancing too, it's more of an added beat that makes the chanting interesting. My favorite "Vater Unser" came from their first album, Das Testament. You can listen to the song below!

Vater unser
der Du bist im Himmel
Geheiligt werde Dein Name
Dein Reich komme
Dein Wille geschehe
Wie im Himmel als auch auf Erden
Und vergib uns unsre Schuld
Wir auch wir vergeben unsern Schuldigern
Wir auch wir vergeben unsern Schuldigern

In nomine patris et filii et spiritus sancti

Vater unser
der Du bist im Himmel
Geheiligt werde Dein Name
Dein Reich komme
Dein Wille geschehe
Wie im Himmel als auch auf Erden
Unser t�glich Brot gib uns heute
Und vergib uns unsre Schuld
Wie auch wir vergeben unsern Schuldigern
Und f�hre uns nicht in Versuchung
Sondern erl�se uns von dem �bel
Denn Dein ist das Reich und die Kraft und die Herrlichkeit in Ewigkeit

In nomine patris et filii et spiritus sancti
In nomine patris et filii et spiritus sancti

Vater unser
der Du bist im Himmel
Geheiligt werde Dein Name
Dein Reich komme
Dein Wille geschehe
Wie im Himmel als auch auf Erden
Und vergib uns unsre Schuld
Wir auch wir vergeben unsern Schuldigern
Wir auch wir vergeben unsern Schuldigern

Vater h�re meine Stimme
Herr h�re meine Stimme

Lasset uns beten
Der Herr ist ein Schatten �ber deinem rechten Hand.
Vater unser, Dein ist das Reich und die Kraft und die Herrlichkeit in Ewigkeit

July 19, 2010

shh! I'm watching a movie.

Last night I had the chance to watch another silent film. They come on late at night after 11:00pm. But I enjoy them greatly, I get a different experience from them than other films. They are two different things in my opinion. The show last night was Notre Dame de Paris (The hunchback of Notre Dame). It was produced during 1911 in France. The version I watched was centered more around Esmeralda instead of Quasimodo. I'll be honest i've never read the original book so it might be centered around her. I tried to look up a little bit more info but all I could find was that it was rated R, which i'm not really so sure about that. But one unique thing was when they were out side during the day or inside a well lit room they used this bright sepia color but if they were outside during the night they used a deep blue coloring. I guess to help set the mood!

(Click on the image to see a bigger size)

July 17, 2010

I got into the writing mood

I had a compulsion to write last night and this is what came of it. I tried to write from a guys point of view but it still came out a bit feminine.. hahaha anywhoo there you go. I named it "The Time Keeper"


I had an enemy who I hated more than anything. I wanted nothing more than to wipe away any knowledge of its existence. And I did… I killed Time. But not before I fell in love….

I had the ability to stop time, in my head at first. I would concentrate on nothing until the humming noises around me ceased; a hiding place that I could go to in my head. I went there on July sixteenth…but when the noises stopped I opened my eyes to see everything held still.

There were many things and people frozen but my attention was seized by her. She had dishwater hair that hugged around her neck, freckles that danced across her cheeks down to her arms, brown eyes that held no daggers….

I came closer to her taking in the expression that held her face. It looked so free and content… In some ways I wanted that expression. I brushed her hair behind her ear; she had a scar above her left eye half hidden by her brow. After hesitating I touched the uneven skin, memorized the smooth divots.

She had a piece of paper clutched in her hand, more freckles. With my fingers aligned with hers I opened her hand, it was a train ticket. I closed her hand back securely and walked away. I looked back and saw her walking away.

The noise came flooding back, and all I could do was watch until she turned a corner. Standing under a dying neon sign I came to the decision to follower her. I remembered from the ticket which station she was headed to. At that moment I feared I couldn’t run fast enough.

She was standing there as the train pulled in. She stepped with her left foot, I will always remember that. As I ran up to her the noises melted away, the trained stopped…Confusion weld up in me. I held it in my throat until it burned. Anxiety crept up and seized my body. I knew something was wrong… I tried so hard, so hard to get the noises to come back to assault my ear drums but to no avail. I sat down by the girls feet… waiting

I looked up at the face of this stranger, this girl that I had followed. Rage shot up and brought me to my feet and I yelled at her. Screamed inches from her frozen face but she had no reaction. I cried. She did not consol me nor could she. I didn’t know what to do…
I hugged her, embraced her tight enough to feel a small warmth caught beneath her shell.

I stayed with her, with that content look on her face… the look I always wanted.

July 13, 2010

Tune Tuesday

You, Me, and Everyone We Know is a pop-punk rock band from Washington D.C. that started back in 2006. They kind of remind me of these angst-emo bands that a friend used to listen to in high school. Their song "...Because I spit hot fire" is my favorite. It came from the band's first album. You can listen to the video below!


The sweat soaks his shirt
And he's feeling his blood thin out
And the pulse we've built outside this epidermis keeps his charm en route

Pedals to the floor
Like my hips press to yours
There's a whisper from your lips "lets go"
You don't stand a chance

I'm as stealthy as a slow gas leak
By the time that you know you'll have succomb to me
I've never seen such a battle to open one door

You're batting eyes
As he's taking his time
As we're playing out the last notes to your calling song

Pedals to the floor
Like my hips press to yours
There's a whisper from your lips "lets go"
You don't stand a chance

I'm a rush much like passing notes
'Cause I'm keeping the secrets you'd all die to know
But have no shame
These boundaries called waistlines are bound to be broken sometime

July 11, 2010

Number 17 (Check)

well I got to mark off number 17 from my 21 before 21 list. Although it wasn't REALLY by choice. I wanted to go a week without eating meat. I've gone 2! And it's not just meat i've gone with out. It's ANY fried foods, ABSOLUTELY NO PASTA, or CHEESE, GAH I LOVE CHEESE.... that means no pizza either...ug. CHINESE MUTHAFUCKER....GAH!!

okay i'm better now, not really. I got sick two weeks ago and still have not been stored to my regular health. I don't know what's wrong, I went to a clinic and they sent some blood off for a test.. hopefully they will call tomorrow! I'm afraid I might have aggravated my existing ulcer or have a new one... grr

Anyway that's that.

July 10, 2010

Things to Ponder!!

I enjoy taking test that try to explain who I am; personality tests. I don't take these tests to heart but they're interesting.

Test 1: Myer-Briggs personality test (It's the big pick squared one named Jung typology test)

I got INFJ which is the protector

Test 2: The Alignment Test
my result was True Neutral

Test 3: Past Life Analysis (it's not a real past-life regression test it's just fun to do)

I got: I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern North Australia around the year 850. Your profession was that of a map maker, astrologer, astronomer.
Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Timid, constrained, quiet person. You had creative talents, which waited until this life to be liberated. Sometimes your environment considered you strange.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Your main lesson is to develop magnanimity and a feeling of brotherhood. Try to become less adhered to material property and learn to take only as much, as you can give back.

Love to know what you lovelies got!!

July 9, 2010

Are you Talking to me? .....Maybe!

I have a slight aggravation that I need to let out. I think some people assume that men don't have body issues. Men have problems just like women. Well minus the breast thing, but I personally know men who worry about their hair (One for sure, spends more money on his hair than most women spend on make-up), teeth, abs (or lack there of), skin (acne), and yeah penis size. But I think some assume that since they don't hear about it constantly that it's not an issue. Most men have been taught, I assume half by their fathers and half society, that they aren't supposed to be emotional about things like that, a taboo if you will. I really believe if it was more of a gender accepted emotion for men we would hear about it more. EVERYBODY has issues with their body!! Women can do the exact same thing that they accuse men of. "Oh they always look at those skinny models, they want someone with a small waist and big boobs". Well women do the same thing "Wow that actor is hot, look at his 6 pack!!" It hurts womens feelings and it hurts men's feelings.

Some Links To read:
Male Bulemia
Male Body Issues
Male Body Image

Question: What do you think? Do you think men have issues or that they're not as important as women's body problems?

July 7, 2010

Book Review: The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian

From the very abnormal mind of Sherman Alexie sprouted "The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian". While reading I kept flipping back to the authors name. Why did it sound so familiar to me? Out of a ferocious curiosity I searched his name and BOOM! He wrote the script "Smoke Signals". It was a movie I had to watch in college. I found a reoccurring theme with him; an Indian with a mental issue or retardation paired with a physically strong Indian. Don't get me wrong the movie and the book are two different stories they just happen to have a similar theme. The book was hilarious, heartbreaking, and charming, but it really bugged me how many times the word "Like" was used in this book.

Pros: Unique story and characters, interesting sketches to help illustrate the story, and realistic.

Cons: over use of the word "like" and my cat spilled tea on it so now its ruined but that's not the books fault. :D

I give it a 4.5 out of 5!!

July 6, 2010


Meleonie gave me an award a while back but I was sick (still am) but feeling much better now. Here are the rules

1) Get very excied that you won it YAYYYYYYY!
2) Choose ONE of the following options of accepting the OMB award
a) Get really drunk and blog for 15 minutes straight or for as long as you can focus
b) Write about your most embarrassing moment
c) Write a "Soundtrack Of Your Childhood" post.
d) Make your next blog post a vlog (video post). Basically talk to the camera about whatever you want.
e) Take a picture of yourself first thing in the morning before you do anything else (hair, make-up etc.) and post it.
3. Pass the award to at least 3 (or more!) other bloggers, but don't forget to tell them!

I chose option E which is a picture of me first thing in the morning no make up, hair brushing, or photo editing! BAH

I pass this award onto Dolly(bonoir), (Em) the writer, and Namine from the clutter box!

Tune Tuesday

Exilia is an Italian "nu metal" band from Milan! I'm not really sure about what dictates "nu" metal but I greatly enjoy rock that gives me this "i'm on the edge of my seat" feeling. They started way back in 1998 when the lead singer met their guitarist. Exilia caught my attention because they mix alternative rock with raging hard rock. Masha's voice reminds me of Melissa Etheridge if she did rock. My favorite song is "coincidence" and you can watch it below!!

I was lying on the floor
Till I I heard you cry so close
Yes, I was thinking of suicide,suicide.
Your face,there in the mirror
Your sigh,vision in my head
Goin’ mad,is there someone else? Someone else?
Is there something more that I can say?

I can say,I can say,I feel you closer
I can say,I can say,is the something more that
I can say,I can say

Are we living on a razor?
Is this predestination?
I’m confusing what is real,what is real
Something,something is controlling
Calling,crawling in my skin
I say,is there someone else?

Is there something more that I can say?

I can say,I can say,I feel you closer
I can say,I can say,is the something more that
I can say,I can say

I feel you-Am I sick?There’s no end,if you believe
Coincidence,destiny,it’s not over
I feel you-Am I sick?There’s no end,if you believe
Coincidence,destiny,it’s not over

Give me a sign
Give me a sign
Give me a sign
Give me a sign
I can’t see you


If I have a star
You are protecting me
If I am too blind
It’s just a coincidence
If I live in fera
Your sigh covers me
If I fear to live
I can say
It’s not over
It’s not over

July 1, 2010

grumble...hiss... grr!!!

I have been gravely ill for the past 3 days. I just started feeling better today, i'm hoping tomorrow i can start eating food again. Funny how when you can't keep food down you start craving certain things...

Meleonie was very sweet and passed an award on to me. I am still feeling really light headed so I will do that next post. But thank you it made my day brighter!

When I'm sick I have this ritual and it goes like..

1. navigate to another location! (I hate being in my own bed when i'm sick, i'll either go to the extra bed or couch.)

2. take many baths (makes you feel better)

3. Wash sheets constantly

4. diet consisting of salted crackers, banana popsicles, water, and deluded sprite.

5. watch funny home videos (laughter is the best medicine...next to pain killers)

Question: What do you do when you get sick?